GARDEN FROM TEARS VERSE 1 I don’t want these tears anymore Why do you have to stay? I don’t want these tears anymore Please go away CHORUS Spring up a well Spring up a well Spring up a well within (me) VERSE 2 If these tears won’t go away And insist to stay Show me what’s inside of them If they still remain BRIDGE Come to me Go through me All around (me) Grow this garden now VERSE 3 Please don’t ever go away Though it’s not so sane Pile high, deep, and wide Just please stay ENDING Just please stay Just please stay | I have a long history of becoming emotional to the point of tears. I tried to stop it when I was younger because it was a state of vulnerability. Tears made me feel weak and out of control. But however uncomfortable tears are, tears are never just tears. There’s always a reason behind them – a clue that something is touching you deep inside. And it’s this beautiful phenomenon that opens us up to the point where we can no longer hide from ourselves. It’s true that tears are like laughs; we have a million different kinds. Yes, sometimes I genuinely welcome them. But when it comes to a turning point and the tears speak of confusion and being lost, I personally hate them. They make me feel completely vulnerable and out of control. This song comes out of me being afraid to look within the tears. On one side, the tears illuminate the confusion within me, telling me to shut down change, to go on with life as it is. But on the other side, something is itching to come to the surface, to be known. In a time of decision, this hope deep inside wants to spring up and lead the way. So the tears of fear and hope fight. And it’s not in vain. The tears will spring up a well. As the well springs up, so does the knowledge of where I am to be planted. All that goes into the decision is like a reserve for what I will draw upon in the next season. It will water a garden in and around me. So with that, I beg these tears to continue, to not stop until they start that watering process, start that garden within me. And if this watering process is followed, it will lead to healing, freedom, and a deeper relationship with God. |
As I read what God spoke into my heart two years ago (to the right), it is beautiful to see the faithfulness of God. These words speak so clearly of what I was brought through. | "Be in a place where you can be planted. Where continued growth will pop up. Where your roots grow deep and fruit starts to spring up. Do not fear the garden. The garden is the place of joy, freedom, intimate relationship with Me and those around you. Be able to weed and plow up the garden wherever you are. And as it is helpful to plant different crops in different years to keep the soil rejuvenated, do not be afraid of change. Rest in the garden. Give thanks in the garden. Open up your heart in the garden." |